cutting your fruit

there are many things that i couldnt realise until i got to live alone in Malaysia. 

we all know, n realise, that people usually compare their life with those 'higher' than them and so do i. this 'higher' means everything. richer, cleverer, more handsome, prettier, you name it. i couldnt help but comparing myself to other people, being ungrateful with every condition, cause i always see points in which people are better or 'higher' than me.

until one day, i was cutting my fruits (grapes and apple) in my room in Malaysia. i was VERY LAZY to do that. my brother and i, wont eat any fruit that still has seeds in it. hahaha. such a lazy couple, arent we? orange, grapes, apple, etc, wont be eaten if there are seeds. it used to be my helper cutting the grapes and throwing away all the seeds. same case with apple. they will cut the apple, throw away all the seeds and specially for me, because of my teeth, they will cut the apple in small pieces so that i dont have to bite the apple. the point is, no matter what kind of fruit they are, they all will be placed nicely in one plate. we, then, will eat them happily, without facing any difficulties in throwing away any seeds.

at that time i was thinking. i was so lazy to cut those grapes and apple and throw away all the seeds, though after that, ME is the one who will be eating that fruit.i just cant imagine that i have to cut the grapes and apple and throw away all the seeds, and i will not taste even a bite of it. 

but then i was like 'isnt it my helper always like this? they cut the fruits, they throw away all the seeds and they DONT eat the fruits?'

hahaha --> it's a sad laugh. 

how can i do that to my helper? GRAR. well, not that if we give them they will eat it. they wont. i swear. they wont. ive tried to give them food before we eat *so that it wont be 'leftover'*, but they never want to eat before we eat.  


but still, how can i not think about that? 


at the very least, how can i not be thankful of their presence? how can i still compare all things that i dont have and not being grateful with the ones i have?

while we are eating happily, they are cutting the fruit. when we are done eating, the fruit will be placed nicely in the table. it seems simple, but when i think more of it, there are people working who make that able to happen. there are people who have to cook before we are able to eat. there are people who have to cut the fruits and throw away all the seeds so that we can eat them without any difficulties. there are people who will wash all the dishes so that we can continue our movies or homework or novels or whatever activities seconds after we are done eating. there are people who have to clean the kitchen after the cooking is all done so that we dont have to worry about all the mess resulted from the cooking.

living alone has been giving me lessons from the very simplest things to all the 'big' things. what ive been learning the most is how to be grateful with what i have, and this is one of them. cutting fruits might seem simple, but it gave me a whole bunch of knowledge and lessons that i couldnt even think of it before. and i should say, people who have chance to cut their own fruit at the very beginning should be very thankful :))