MY FIRST POST FROM MALAYSIA!!
i can be separated from my iPod speaker, but i can NEVER be separated from my blog! hahaha. writing will always be my desire. i want want want want to be a writer sometime, somehow, somewhere. yes yes YES! i know my writing is not that good. but people can have dreams, right?
i am enjoying my life here. there are of course, some things here and there those i am not comfortable with. but overall, here i am, sitting in my dorm, enjoying a little relax time to update my blog. other words, enjoying and relaxing my day :D
life's been tough here. we are asked to be SO independent with our assignments and tutorials. we were (still are, actually) not used to that, got REAL stressed and panic, and in the first 2 weeks, cannot be separated from our study desk. being a nerd in our room, studying whole day.
THAT really makes me think. the more i study about accounting and stuffs and the more i know about work and business culture, the more i dont want to be a worker in a company nor a businessman (business woman, to be exact :p). i dont want to be so stressed out with my life, i dont want to be faced with ethical decision (you know, accountant --> money. SIGH. n Indonesia is one of the most corrupted country, right? uh i really dont want to work as an accountant in indo!) i want to enjoy my life, i want to do what i REALLY LOVE.
the thing is, what i really love cannot raise money. i am not a money-is-everything person, but i really know that money is really needed to survive. we dont have money, we cannot eat. it's as simple as that, am i right?
you know what i want?
...
???
i really want to be a full time volunteer.
jeng jeng jeng.
volunteer, as the ones who help the hunger eat.
volunteer, as the ones who take care of orphaned children.
i am not a very smart person. but i am smart enough to know that i get nothing (in terms of money) from doing that. i know that we should just have faith in God, but it's very difficult to not being realistic.
my second dream is to be a full time writer. HUAH. i really LOVE writing. i LOVE writing. but i know my writing is not that good. that's why i did not study journalism at the first place. that's why i studied accounting. because that's really the basic of every business and company, therefore i SHOULD get job easier.
my second big dream is to be a writer (OF COURSE!)
i really envy those who can write in magazines or newspaper. oh i should have gone to Pontianak to follow my granddad's staffs. HAH. maybe i should do it on my next holiday.
i really don't know what to do. i think it's a little bit late to think about dreams and goals :( but what i know is what's happening now is in God's hand and it's the best for me. i must keep doing my best in my study, keep praying for my dreams, and see where they end.
loads of cheers from Malaysia!
