like one of the motivator whom my father usually listens to, now i want to say the sentence which the motivator usually say all aloud:
success is my right!
as now i m in college, i already started thinking about my future.
what i want to be, where i want to work, whether i want to stop working when i have children or not, or i want to stay in Australia or Jakarta.
those questions always spinning in my mind nowadays.
the biggest question is, m i going to be success?
i already made my parents throw away much much money to pay me study abroad. the money that first was going to be used for us to travel around Europe *or atleast that's what they were saying: we r gonna go to Europe*, the money that my parents first wanted to use it to buy another house. the money that my parents might want to use it for their time in retirement later.
n i made them throw away all of this.
my father,one day in our way to church, ever said to me: "tes, im gonna retire soon"
then i just said back: "well.. then?"
he then replied: "well i hope u n ur brother both will have graduated at that time. me n ur mother ever calculated it long time ago. but now we can see that ur graduation will happen faster than our calculation, as now u go to college n not continue ur high school. however, the money calculation was based on Indonesia's fees, not Australian."
that sentence is the reason i started thinking about it. my decision to study abroad is not their plan.
moreover, being in college is not easy.
first, i must go there by transjakarta, which takes 1hour n a half to get there. if i used car, it would only take maximum 30 minutes! O M G.
moreover, my books is much much heavier than my high school's book! gosh. u should try carrying my accounting book!
then, the tasks is soooooo many. homework, projects, essays, presentations, O M G. there r atleast two tasks each week. well for next week i have 3 homework n 1 essay to be done.
the homework is not the kind i usually had in high school. u cant finish it in an hour. one task takes atleast 2 hours. hoooohhhh :(
the essay will take HOURS.
but one thing that i want to say is.
success is my right!
pa, n ma.. *though i know u wont read it. n actually, i wish u ever wont read this*
this is my desire..
*i cannot say this is my promises, cos i cant predict the future.*
what i can promise is i will try my best to reach them..
u r gonna see i won't make u regret ur decision.
u r gonna see ur hard work, ur sweat, and ur effort for this wont ever end uselessly.
u r gonna see that i m trying my best, that i m not gonna lose money for nothing.
u r gonna see, that what i m doing right now, n later, is worth your effort n mine.
n later, u r gonna see that u dont need to be afraid bout ur future life. cos, that's the time for me to give all u've been giving n ur gonna give since i was born, now, n until later i can stand on my own.
n later, u r gonna see that u dont need to be afraid bout ur future life. cos, that's the time for me to give all u've been giving n ur gonna give since i was born, now, n until later i can stand on my own.
u r gonna see that.
seriously.
