Melbourne - part 1

i do have to say that i feel disappointed with myself because of not being able to write about my last trip to KL, Melbourne, and Sydney. that was just such a shame cause i REALLY want to remember that trip for, like, forever.

-okay to be honest, i want to remember the Melbourne part-

i DO love Melbourne. I LOVE the city, i love all the very-welcoming people, i love their very-pleasant-and-clean-and-VERY-safe public transportation. 

so i am now posting something that i can remember before i forget all the details. now i am cheating my itinerary and my camera photos :p oh ya, when you see the time footnotes in the photos, you have to add them by 4 more hours, because my camera was set to Indonesia time.

the very bad thing in Melbourne is that taxi fare is expensive. it. is. really. EXPENSIVE. i did not try any, because all my friends who have been to Melbourne say that the fare is too expensive. one of my friend spent 100AUD for taxi. how silly. 

but as i said before, the public transportation system is DAMN GOOD. i never have to walk more than 5 minutes to go anywhere. they have trams, buses, and trains like, everywhere. 

so the first thing i remember was we had to go to our hotel by shuttle bus (because of the very-expensive-taxi-fare). we went by SkyBus, which we booked online from Indonesia. so how the thing goes with SkyBus is they pick us up in the airport by a usual bus to the Central Station (their buses come every 5 minutes! isnt that awesome? and they are NEVER late). from there, all the passengers will be separated by the location of the hotels and go there with smaller bus. i dont have the big bus photo, but i do have the smaller bus (van, to be exact)

so there's the van which take us to our hotel. the back of it is of course, the Central Station. 

silly me, i dont have any photo of our hotel. but, i do remember we were staying at Miami Hotel. the hotel was quite good, it has a small-but-convenient room and the toilet is clean. it is a backpacker hotel, but they do have rooms for private usage. though we say to ourselves that we are backpacking, but we are not used to how backpackers share their bedrooms with strangers and go to the same bathroom. so yes, we were staying at their usual room. 

because at that time we had not understood how their transportation system went, we were on foot for the whole day. we were given a map from the hotel, and were going to the Queen Victoria Market. they said it was only a 10-minute walking. ah, DONT ever believe in their timing of walking. we walked there for almost 45 minutes! i dont know, maybe they walk faster than us because every time we asked about the walking timing, it was always a MUCH shorter time than we actually walked. 

this is me in our first visit to the QVM. sorry for the silly face hahaha. at night we were sleeping in the airplane and on the day we had our flight we did not book any hotel to save money :p and then, when we got to Melbourne we could not check in yet -in other words, we had not taken a bath for more than 24 hours. GRAAA.- 

okay, i have to stop writing about my face. 


that is QVM, Queen Victoria Market. they sell the cheapest fruit and vegetables there. but still, for us Indonesian, they are still VERY expensive. 


this is their food court. sorry for the quality of all picts, we both are not good at photography :p

and this is our first food in Australia! it is an indian food, but i forgot the price and the exact name. i think it's around 9AUD since we never had anything more than 9AUD hahaha. so all food we had were around 8-9AUD. we shared this rice (in fact, we shared all food we had there). but still, we are really full. their portion of food is HUGE. really. HUGE. 

but thanks to Autralia's good taste, all the food we had there were delicious, so was this indian rice. it was nice! 


then we went to China Town :)

in China Town we bought our Australian number, Lebara then my mom went to the bank (forgot what bank) to manage her account.


at my first day, i have had the whole idea of Australians.
Australians are VERY friendly and helpful. we knew nothing about Melbourne and how to go to QVM and China Town but every person we asked are VERY helpful. they were helping us more than what we asked. some of them even took a look at our map and explained us carefully which way to take. some of them did not know how to get there but they wanted to study the map and tell us. a shop owner even went out from his shop, brought us across the street and tell us how to go. some even brought us to the nearest junction then explained the way to get there. i was very impressed. and this is why i love Melbourne SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much. 


picts below are Flinders station (my friend said almost all train and tram went through this station. and she was right *of course she was! she lives in Melbourne!*, because every time we want to go somewhere, we had to go to this station) and Yarra river (if i am not mistaken)

the photos were both taken by my mom, as i was in the hotel taking a bath and talking with my very beloved friend Gabriel Kereh who studies in Melbourne! she met me in our hotel because, you know, we could not go to anywhere else unless we wanted to get lost HAHA. me and gebi went to the mall and ate ice cream (thanks for your treat! hihi :p) and then went to the river to meet my mom. oh ya, we went to a stationary store in the mall *of course i forgot the name of the mall* called Typo. they sell very cute stationary but they are all very expensive *all things in Melb are very expensive, to be honest*

me and gebi :)

me and mom 

WOW. i just realised that all of us wore blue tops! 

the first thing you have to realise is it was very bright though it was quite late. when you see the footnote, it was 14.32 indonesian time so it was 18.32 or 6.32 p.m in Australia yet it was still very bright! 

after we went to the river, we went to a beach *which i forgot the name* because i was veryyy tired at that time *of course! after all the walking* so i decided to just have a sit with gebi and let my mom walk down the street that you can see in the pict below. you see, it's half past seven yet it was still very bright. haha. how i love Melbourne in spring!

after we went to the beach, i think we caught a tram hmm. i forgot. gebi did explain to us how the transportation works, but i forgot whether we went home by tram or on foot. yah the point is, after had a couple of minutes in the beach, we were going home!


this is the end of part 1 hoho. i will definitely post the part 2. 

Part 2 of Membolang di KL, Melbourne and Sydney

now im continuing my Day 2 :)

after we finished going around the campus and pay for the initial fee for the dorm, we looked for lunch in Sunway. we walked to the hmm Rock Cafe (not sure about the name). then i, again, found out that the food is quite cheap. my 1 portion of chicken rice is about 5RM (15rb) and all fruit in that food court is 1RM each. yes i am happy yet i am afraid about my future weight hahaha.

i do not have photos of the food court n food, so sorry :(

all those activities were done till afternoon, so we went to a hotel still located in Sunway (forgot the name) and borrowed their toilets *hahaha :p* to change our clothes and refresh ourselves because we did not have any hotel room for that day n we still had a flight to catch at night (in other words, we could not have shower until we arrived at our hotel in Melbourne tomorrow). sigh. it was tiring. 

after finished with the toilet thing, we went back to Tune Hotel to pick our luggages that were stored there (3RM each) and with the shuttle bus (1RM each person) we got back to the LCCT and waited for our flight. the AWESOME thing is LCCT gives us free wifi. yeahhh. oh there is a caffe that is very crowded n we ordered 2 cup of coffees and 1 portion of hmm laksa, i think. the cafe is called 'Old Town White Caffee' and the coffee is sooo good (n is quite cheap compared with starbucks etc. too bad i forgot the price) the laksa was good, too.

after that we just waited for our flight and yes, flight was the end of Day 2 and the beginning of Day 3 :)

Day 3 

i began my day with....... brushing my teeth in the airplane. hahaha. it was the first time for me, n i was doing it during a turbulence -__- yeah. can't be said as a nice experience, but well yeah, it cannot be forgotten hahaha. 


the first thing we did after we arrived was looking for tourist information in the airport. we found it, but it was crowded so we decided to go back to the hotel first and then ask the information in the hotel instead. so then, we went to the hotel -Miami Hotel- with shuttle bus named SkyBus. it costed us 13AUD each, if im not mistaken. however, to get that kind of price, you must book return ticket, not one way ticket. 


anw, SkyBus did not get us to the hotel directly. they first got us to the Central station in Melbourne, then after that their staff cross check with the hotel about our arrival, then we must wait another bus (smaller) to get us to our hotel. 




okay i MUST stop here because i totally forgot what happened next after we arrived. GREAT. 

membolang di KL, melbourne, sydney :D

i just got back home at 11 this morning. now that im not too tired, i guess im gonna write about this little trip before i forget every detail (yeah i definitely will in 3 days). well actually i am even cheating in the itinerary right now, but i try not to as much as possible


ah, before that, i should say that this trip was not supposed to be like a holiday like what really happened. it was supposed to be me and my mom looking for room or house or apartment to rent in Melbourne for my 2-year study. but as i mentioned before, i decided to go to KL instead. so yes, this holiday was 'supposed not to be a holiday' holiday :p


anyway, here it goes...


DAY 1.


my flight from Jakarta to KL was at night. i forgot the exact time, but i do remember we chose Tune Hotel (Air Asia's hotel that is located inside the Low Cost Carried Terminal Airport) so that we do not need to search any taxi or train or monorail or whatever in the middle of the night. Tune Hotel is in walking distance, and they even provide us with shuttle bus. so, that would be efficient considering we arrived there in the middle of the night. 


DAY 2


i went to Sunway with my mom to see my future campus and dorm.


oh because the trip was not arranged by tour, i would like to share our means to get to all places we've been. to get to sunway from the LCCT, we should ride shuttle bus, train, and then taxi. so firstly, we went to the central station by shuttle bus.if im not mistaken, it costed each of us 8RM.the bad thing is, they do not have any schedule so they just wait until the bus is full then they run the bus :(. after we got to the central, we went to hmmmmmmm Subang Jaya station by train (forgot the fee). the train has time schedule and it is quite punctual. then from there, we reached Sunway by taxi (15RM). the public transportation is somewhat the same as indonesia. a little better, i should say. at least they have time table and they are quite punctual. 


okay, done with the transportation thing. 


the Monash University Campus is hmm better that i thought before. the campus is quite big. we went around the campus with one of the staffs there. we saw the classrooms, lecture halls, canteens, etc etc. too bad we went there when they were having their holidays so i cannot see other students. and too bad the library closes at 5 pm. grrrr. 


after we went around the campus, we went seeing the dorm. i realised that though the dorm is soooo good, it actually is a bit complicated. there are caps for electricity, laundry, and even air con. gosh! so the cap for my air con (the thing that freaks me out the most) is 180 hours a month! ----- yes, 6 hours a day. how can i live with thatttt??? so , if i get more than 180-hour use a month, i have to pay more. that's sooooo frustrating because the fee of the dorm is already quite expensive, and the library (which of course has air con) is closed at 5 pm. SIGH. no no no. VERY BIG SIGH. another big minus is that we are not allowed to cook in the dorm. yes, malaysian foods are delicious (some are surprisingly very delicious). yes, it is cheap. but yes, those really are the big problems! i can gain my weigh! errrr.






err. i should go now. day 2 is not finished yet. will continue later. 

Monash KL :)

from now on, i am trying to post my blog all in English. huft. BIG sigh.

yeah. the fact is, 3 months from now, English will be my first language. i will be using it to talk to teachers and friends, to order for food and drinks, to ask for directions, to ask for anything i don't understand in class, etc etc etc :( therefore i decided to write my blog in English. if i cannot even write in English well, how can i even talk to others in English, right? 

ah by the way, the reason i write this post is not to announce my decision to write this blog in English, but to announce my much bigger decision. 

I am going to Monash KL!

yah. finally, after all discussions of pros and cons i had with my parents and some friends, i decided to continue my uni to Monash KL, not to Monash Australia which i planned before. all this time the plan was that i was going to oz. i joined Jakarta International College to go study to Monash Australia, not to Monash KL. 

well, i guess sometimes plans simply do not work.

to be honest, it is really my dream to study overseas, especially to western countries. KL is still overseas, indeed. but it is not a western country (in fact, it has lots similarities with Indonesia). the point is, going to Monash Aussie is, really,really, indeed, my dream. 

but, to think of it, tuition fee in Australia is VERY expensive. not because their dollar is becoming stronger and stronger nowadays, but because it is simply very expensive. even when we compare it to tuition fees in countries in Europe, which, of course, is in Poundsterling, Australia is still much more expensive.

and to be honest, the decision of me going to Australia was made in a big hurry. i was so stressed in my high school and was having a terrible time back then. to run from all those things, i decided to quit my school and enrol to JIC. the point is, if the decision was not made in a big hurry, we could search deeper and found out that it is better to study in Europe. it is cheaper, and the quality of their schools are great, too. 

because of those things, we decided i will go to Monash KL instead of Monash Australia. the tuition fee is much cheaper, and the rest of the money could be used to fund my master degree in England or Holland *amen*.

Monash KL is simply the branch of Monash Australia. it gives us the exact certificate with the one that Monash Australia gives. however, the courses offered are different. there are some courses that are offered in Australia but are not offered in KL and vice versa. the other difference is the teachers. though all teachers are sent to Australia to make sure that they have same educational standards as theirs, the quality of the English language and accent might differ. teachers in Australia might have better English and accent than ones in KL as in Australia, English is their first language and while in KL, it is not. the fact that one of the purposes of studying abroad is to learn English makes me afraid of what will the accent of my English two years later like. sigh. 

there are other bases that support my decision, but i guess those two differences take the biggest proportion of my reasons to choose KL instead Australia. 

well, i just wish this is the right decision. 

if i were to choose

this post is not to show that i am ungrateful with my current condition, but i am writing this to keep my dreams unforgotten and to remember that there's nothing impossible, is there?


if i were to choose, i wanted to be great in drawing so that i could be an architect or interior designer. when i was little, i always loved to draw. one of my dreams was to be a painter, like Piccaso, Van Gogh, etc. but then, years passed, i realised that i have no special talent in drawings. then i changed my dream.

i changed my dream so that i could be a novelist. i always love to read novels, comics, magazines, everything, until now. then i think i could be a writer so that people who love reading could enjoy my writings. i wanted to be a famous writer, i wanted to write lots and lots and lots of novels or short stories for children all over the world. when i  was little, i adored Enyd Blyton, Hans Christian Anderson, Laura Ingals, and many other classic writers (sorry if i misspell something). then, months passed, i know i was not good at writing fictions. 

when i was in senior high school, i tried to figure out what i will do for a living. i always want to do what i love, so i could enjoy my work. at that time, i always thought about being a journalist in magazines or newspaper. i think i have a good opportunity too, as my grandfather owns a local newspaper in Pontianak. my mother once suggested me to go there and learned about being a journalist. but, as months passed, i realised i never read any newspaper or magazines hahaha. well, i always love reading fictions, but i am really not a fan of non fiction  :p however, this is the strange one, i prefer to write nonfiction rather than fiction. it is much easier. i am not creative, so i am not able to make up fantasy stories. i prefer to do research, to go some place that events are being held, and write about it.


the last dream is the one that i am still dreaming about. i always love to write, even though i was very rarely update this blog :p well, that's because i am not creative, i dont know what to write until i am told what to write. that's why i prefer to be a journalist, when i am told about i am going to write. well, at least that is my imagination of the work of journalist. i dont know if it is true. 


to go to my current condition, i am a university student taking bachelor degree in accounting. well, that's quite far from my dream, eh?
i dont take it because i have a dream to be an accountant. i take it as my best choice as with the things i like, i dont have any talent. so i guess i have to choose any field that needs no special talent and is quite general so that people with no special interest in the field could still enjoy the work. you understand what i mean? hmm


for example, i cannot imagine if i were studying doctoral. i hate biology, i hate chemistry. hahaha. doctor is a field that REALLY needs a special interest from people who want to study it. if the people do not like doctoral, i bet their university life is like hell haha. 


and i cannot imagine if i forced myself to study interior design and architect. i LOVE to see my friends' drawing and design, but at the same time, i know i could never, ever, be able to draw like that hahaha. 


i dont know whether any of my dreams could still be reached, i guess now i only need to do my best at whatever i have chosen now. maybe i could be a writer in accounting magazine :p

'kaya' itu relatif

'kaya' itu relatif.


kalo ngeliad temen2 yang dikasih supir sama orangtuanya, gw suka iri. enak kan bisa kemana2 tuh tinggal duduk, dingin ber-AC, tidur, eh tau2 sampe. sedangkan kalo gw ngeliad diri gw sendiri, gw harus naek dari 1 angkutan umum ke angkutan umum yang laennya. seringnya berdiri, panas,udah gitu kalo tidur ntar bablas. 


gw suka melebaykan diri sendiri dengan berasa kaya gw orang paling menderita. well, emang sih ga banyak anak cewe seangkatan gw yang diijinin naek angkot kemana2 sejak SD. waktu kecil gw les lumayan banyak loh, n smuanya naek angkot sama mba gw n ade gw. cape banget. gw inget gw sllu berebutan sama ade gw mau duduk di jendela biar dapet angin. gw inget gw sllu tidur senderan di pundak mba gw. gw inget gw sllu jalan kaki buat cari bajaj yang kadang luamaaa buanget baru dapet. gw inget gw suka ketiduran kalo tungguin bonyok gw jmput di tempat les piano.


saat itu, gw cuma ngeliad ke atas, ga pernah ngeliad ke bawah. yang gw tau gw cuma pengen supir kaya' temen2. udah itu doang. mimpi anak kecil, bukan? 


setelah gw gede, keinginan gw bertambah. ngeliad anak2 sekelas gw uda pada bisa nyetir, gw pgn bisa nyetir sndiri kemana2. sebagai penggambaran situasi, di kelas kuliah gw, yang naek busway itu cuma 2 orang, yang laen kalo ngga bawa sndiri ya supir. 


lagi2, gw jadi berasa gw paling sengsara sndiri. 


oh ya, 'kaya' di konteks ini bukan dalam hal material doang loh, tapi itu yang paling gampang dibuat contoh hehehe.


okay bact to topic. tapi ntah napa, semua pikiran itu berhenti setiap gw ngeliad 1 sosok di rumah gw, mba Maroh. dia mba gw yang paling baru, ngegantiin mba gw yang terakhir pulang kampung buat nikah. 


guess what, dia seumuran sama gw. 18 tahun. kalo gw ngeliad dia, gw seakan2 diingetin lagi akan segala sesuatu yang gw punya, yang harusnya gw syukuri. 


disaat dia lagi nyapu, gw lagi bersungut2 belajar. 
disaat dia lagi nyetrika, gw lagi kerjain tugas. 
disaat dia lagi ngepel, gw lagi tidur kecapean kuliah.
disaat dia lagi nyuci, gw lagi bersungut2 nyari chord buat iringin hari minggu. 
disaat dia lagi bingung mau berhenti kerja ato urusin ayahnya yang strok, gw lagi bingung mau kuliah di KL ato di aussie. 


WELL. ini buat gw mikir ulang lagi apa yang uda gw sungut2in sampe skarang. 


gw slalu bersungut2 tugas gw banyak.
gw slalu bersungut2 bahan yang harus gw apalin banyak banget buat ulangan.
gw slalu bersungut2 gw cape kuliah n pengen libur. 
gw slalu bersungut2 ngebandingin gw n temen2 kuliah gw yang bisa bawa mobil sedangkan gw naek busway n mereka yang bisa makan di GI seenak jidat sementara gw harus mikir2 dulu. 
gw slalu bersungut2 gw ga bisa ganti hp seenak jidat gw.
gw bersungut2 ga bisa beli tablet n laptop yang gw pengen. 


tapi pernah ga sih gw mikir, apa yang gw sungut2in itu sesuatu yang kalo bisa dimiliki oleh mba Maroh dia akan sangat amat bersyukur?


dia pasti bersyukur kalo di umur 18 taun, dia juga bisa kuliah sama kaya gw.
dia pasti bersyukur kalo di umur 18 taun, dia bisa maen piano di rumah. 
dia pasti bersyukur kalo dia diijinin punya hp yang gw punya sekarang. 
dia pasti bersyukur kalo dia dikasih laptop yang gw gunain buat ngetik tulisan ini.


karena itu, kaya itu relatif. sekali lagi, 'kaya' di sini bukan hanya dalam hal material, tapi dalam smua hal. 


kalo kita ngeliad ke atas terus, kita ga bakal berasa diri kita cukup. melihat ke atas itu perlu untuk memotivasi, tapi jgn terus2an ngeliad ke atas. lihatlah kebawah, dan bersyukurlah buat apa yang kita uda punya. 


bukankah kita semua itu kaya? kita yang diijinkan punya 2 kaki 2 tangan 2 mata 10 jari harus bersyukur dan mengingat2 kalo ada banyak orang yang ga bisa memiliki apa yang kita punya. 


kita yang diijinkan punya sepeda harus mengingat2 orang yang hanya bisa berjalan kaki kemana2. 


kita yang diijinkan punya sepeda motor harus mengingat2 orang yang hanya bisa mengayuh sepeda dan berjalan kaki. 


'kaya' itu relatif, kawan. karena itu mari bersama2 kita belajar untuk bersyukur!

omelan hari ini

beberapa hari lalu, ada seseorang yang cerita pada saya begini:


masa ya tadi aku liad ada polisi nilang penjual roti


kaget banget saya dengernya. di bayangan saya, penjual roti kan yang pake sepeda itu, yang ngayuh2 pake gerobak. masa ditilang? lantas saya tanya lagi:


hah? yang bener? yang jualnya pake sepeda itu kan? emang dia kenapa?


jawaban dari temen saya waktu itu bener2 ngagetin banget, sontak bikin saya geram. 


dia uturn di tempat yang ga boleh uturn, padahal banyak juga motor2 yang lagi uturn, tapi motor2nya malah ga ditilang.


"GILA!" cuma 1 kata itu yang kepikiran. masa tega sih nilang tukan roti? mana bulan puasa, lagi. tukang roti itu dapet berapa ya shari? belom lagi dia harus nyetor ke yang punya rotinya. uda jualan dari siang, panas2, ngayuh sepeda, masa abis itu ditilang? 


saya sempet kepikiran "polisinya lagi beli roti kali"


trs saya tanya lagi deh ke temen saya itu.


itu polisinya lagi beli roti kaliii.


dia bilang:


ngga, orang aku liad dia lagi nadah2in tangannya, trs penjual rotinya kaya nepuk2 kantongnya kaya nyari duit. lagian kalo lagi beli roti kan harusnya liad2 rotinya dong biar tau roti mana yang harus dibeli.


bener juga ya. kalo mau beli roti, pasti liad2 rotinya yang mau dibeli.

hmm sebenernya, ga baik ngomong ttg suatu peristiwa yang kita gatau sebenernya kaya apa. mungkin aja, *kalo ngayal dikit* itu polisi kenal sama tukang roti n tukang rotinya ngutang dia ato gimana, n dia nagih utangnya di tengah jalan hahaha. well, that's possible, right?


tapi kalo emang bener itu polisi nilang tukang roti, menurut saya itu udah keterlaluan amat sangat. apa sih yang mereka harapkan dari seorang tukang roti? apa mereka ngga malu, nilang dari seorang tukang roti yang uda ngayuh sepeda sharian, keringetan, panas2, bulan puasa lagi? slama bulan puasa, pasti yang beli roti jumlahnya turun. pas giliran udah buka, biasanya orang akan lebih milih buka bersama keluarga, ga makan roti. ya ngga, sih?


okay, sebenernya dengan nulis ini, saya lagi2 melakukan suatu dosa yang emang nempel banget sama saya. menghakimi orang. it's not us to judge, actually. tapi saya kog jadi kesel sendiri setiap inget.


pas denger cerita itu, saya diingetin lagi apa yang papa saya ngmg ke saya dulu 'sebenernya tugas polisi itu kan untuk ngebenerin apa yang salah, nah kalo *misalnya* dia emang bener2 niadnya mau suruh yang naek motor masuk ke jalur lambat, ya harusnya dia berdiri pas sebelom lowong buat pindah jalur lambat biar bisa ngasih tau yang naek motor biar pindah ke jalur lambat, bukan sengaja jaga diujung jalan di jalur cepet sambil smbunyi di balik pohon, biar bisa nangkep2in sapa aja yang uda ngelanggar'.


sekali lagi dalam hati saya "Betul juga!". memang itulah yang harusnya dilakukan, bukan? 


sebenernya gatau sih tujuan ngepost ini apaan, mungkin buat nuangin pikiran doang kali ya, sekaligus nyadarin kita kalo that's life we are facing. sometimes it's not fair, sometimes it's mean, sometimes it's tough. but hey, God is always there beside you!


salah satu renungan yang saya baca bilang 'jangan benci pada orang yang berbuat curang, karna pada saatnya nanti kebenaran kita akan menjadi terang'.


hidup di negara kita tercinta ini emang kadang "diharuskan" untuk berbuat curang. kaya bikin SIM ga bakal bisa kalo ga 'nyogok', trs kalo ditilang polisi malah *ktny* ada2 saja polisi yang ngga mau nilang maunya di sogok. well, kalo uda ngadepin yang kaya gitu emang udah gatau deh kita musti gimana. tapi yaaaahh, don't judge, don't hate. kan ada tertulis "jangan marah karena orang yang berbuat jahat, jangan iri hati kepada orang yang berbuat curang" (Mazmur 37:1)


sekian omelan saya untuk hari ini :p


God bless us! :)

THANKS GOD IT'S OVER.
yep, masalah yang buat gw stress uda kelar. gw uda bisa pulang sambil denger lagu di mobil n sambil nyanyi2. gw uda bisa ngelewatin berhari2 tanpa tangis *ciyeilah* n gw uda bisa tidur siang dengan nyenyak, makan dengan nyantai. praise the Lord!


selama gw stress itu, gw juga jadi sering maen piano n nyanyi2 sndiri. gw ngga tau kenapa, 3 lagu ini sllu gw nyanyiin dengan urutan yang selalu ky gini. 


nah jadi lagi pertama itu ngegambarin keputus asaan gw yang minta mujizat hehe. percaya ga percaya, gw pernah skali nangis pas nyanyi lagu ini.


lagu k2, gw ngebayangin pas masalah gw uda kelar. n itu ngegambarin rasa terima kasih gw untuk itu, n juga nyeruin rasa rindu gw kalo hanya Dia yang bisa jadi tempat jawaban.


nah lagu terakhir ngegambarin kerinduan gw buat ngenal Dia lebih dalem lagi. 


tak terbatas kuasaMu Tuhan
semua dapat Kau lakukan 
apa yang kelihatan mustahil bagiku 
itu sangat mungkin bagiMu


disaat ku tak berdaya
kuasaMu yang sempurna
ketikaku percaya
mujizat itu nyata
bukan karna kekuatan
namun RohMu ya Tuhan 
ketika ku berdoa 
mujizat itu nyata (Mujizat Itu Nyata)


Kau telah buktikan cintaMu padaku
Kau membayarku dengan hidupMu 
kubersyukur


yang ada padaku semuanya milikMu
kupersembahkan sluruh hidupku 
dimezbahMu


hanya Kau yang menjadi tempat jawaban
hanya Kau tempat ku berharap 
berjalan bersamaMu ku takkan goyah
sbab tangan kasihMu tersedia bagiku
slamanya Kau kucinta (Hanya Kau)


dan ku, ingin mengenalMu Tuhan 
lebih dalam dari smua yang kukenal
tiada kasih yang melebihiMu
ku ada untuk menjadi penyembahMu (MengenalMu)

kita itu ngga bakal tau kapan Tuhan akan 'nyentil' kita dengan semua kesombongan kita. maybe selama ini kita mikir kalo tanpa Tuhan kita bisa ngelewatin masalah dengan gampang, kita bisa sukses ulangan tanpa berdoa, kita bisa dapet nilai bagus tanpa doa. kita jadi mikir, tanpa Tuhan kita pun bisa.


itu yang selama ini gw rasain. gw yang bisa dibilang aktif di gereja. gw yang pernah jadi anggota kepanitiaan ini itu, gw yang pernah jadi ketua natal, gw yang tiap minggu dateng ke gereja, gw yang ini itu di gereja, gw yang sering kali ke gereja hampir tiap hari buat latian band. 
gw juga yang dalam hati gw selalu berpikir itu semua bisa gw laluin tanpa pertolongan Tuhan, karna toh selama ini gw ga pernah baca alkitab n berdoa sama Tuhan dalam ngejalanin semua itu n gw 'berhasil' mengerjakan semuanya.


sedih ga sih? 


gw juga bisa ranking di sekolah, gw bisa dapet nilai ulangan bagus, gw yang di kuliah juga bisa tetep dapet nilai bagus. tapi slama itu gw percaya kalo Tuhan ga campur tangan sama skali, gw slama ini berpikir toh gw ga pernah saat teduh, gw ga pernah berdoa, tapi selama ini gw bisa lancar2 aja di studi gw.


sedih ga? 


bukan berarti gw ga punya kerinduan buat deket dan punya hubungan yang intim dengan Tuhan. gw justru ngiri dengan orang yang bisa deket banget sama Tuhan.gw pengen bisa kaya mereka, gw pengen bisa ngejalanin hidup gw dengan Tuhan yang menjadi pusat hidup gw. tapi setiap kali gw coba, setiap kali itu pula gw jatuh. setiap kali gw coba saat teduh, stiap kali itu pula 2 hari kemudian gw uda ga pernah saat teduh lagi.


bonyok gw yang uda stiap bulan beliin gw buku renungan, n stiap bulan itu juga buku renungan itu ga pernah gw baca. kalo ngeliad buku tulis yang sllu gw pake buat nyatet hasil renungan, gw bisa liad terakhir gw baca alkitab setiap hari adalah bulan Februari taun 2006. yep, 5 taun yang lalu. itu juga karna waktu itu gw lagi patah hati berat. abis patah hatinya ilang, gw lgsg ga pernah lagi baca alkitab.


pertanyaan gw 'sedih ga' itu ga usah gw tanya lagi. Tuhan pasti sedih. dan skarang gw juga sedih.


gw SOMBONG. 
maybe ini bisa terjadi karna gw adalah orang yang sangat rational. gw adalah orang yang ngeliad fakta2 yang ada. gw sulit ngebayangin kalo Tuhan yang ga pernah gw liad itu bisa nolong gw di setiap hal. gw sulit ngebayangin kalo Tuhan yang ga pernah ngmg sama gw is the centre of my life. buat gw, itu sangat2 sulit... karna gw ga bisa ngebayangin itu semua pake otak gw. menurut gw, itu ga rational. 


tapi, disaat semua kesombongan yang ada n juga kerinduan di lubuk hati gw yang paling dalem yang ga pernah gw turutin slama 5 taun ini, Tuhan 'nyentil' gw. bukan nyentil lagi sebenernya. bisa dibilang, Tuhan 'nampar' gw.


gw dikasih masalah yang kalo cuma dengan cara duniawi, gw yakin 100% gw ga bakal bisa ngatasin. 


saat ini Tuhan lagi ngmg sama gw, kalo Dia satu2nya orang yang berkuasa di hidup gw. kalo Tuhan mau idup gw berantakan, Tuhan bisa lakuin itu daridulu. kenapa Tuhan selalu kasih gw yang baik2 padahal daridulu gw uda murtad ky gitu? cuma satu jawaban yang bisa gw pikir. karna Tuhan mengasihi gw. 


oh tapi bukan berarti Tuhan sekarang uda ga mengasihi gw karna Dia kasih gw cobaan yang begitu berat. gw percaya, justru karna Dia sangat mengasihi gw, Dia lagi berusaha buat bikin gw balik lagi mengasihi Dia n ga ga jau2 dari Dia.


semenjak gw dikasih kesempatan buat stress ttg masalah yang ga bisa gw ceritain di sini, gw jadi saat teduh setiap hari. gw disadarin kalo tanpa Tuhan, gw ga bakal bisa ngelewatin masalah ini. gw disadarin kalo Tuhan bisa dengan gampangnya ngebuat masalah gw ilang, tapi Dia belom mau *yang jujur gw gatau kenapa Dia belom mau, ato maybe emang ga bakal ilang masalahnya? :(*


seminggu ini, mata gw dibuka akan segala kesombongan gw. mata gw dibuka dengan segala keangkuhan n kekeraskepalaan gw kalo gw bisa sendiri tanpa Tuhan. seminggu ini, gw sadar kalo He is the one who is the centre of my life, no one else. and He is the one whom I cannot live far from since whenever I try to get far, He will struggle reaching me no matter what. 


saat ini, dengan menulis blog ini, gw lagi triak dalam hati. 


gw lagi minta pengampunan sama Tuhan atas semua kesombongan dan keangkuhan gw slama ini. gw sadar masalah yang Dia kasih adalah cara terakhir dari Tuhan buat bikin gw deket sama Dia lagi, setelah semua cara2 yang Tuhan uda lakuin ga gw gubris sama skali.


dan di saat yang sama, gw juga berjanji sama Tuhan kalo gw skarang udah ngebuka hati gw buat Dia. gw ga bakal ngecewain Dia lagi. gw juga mohon sama Tuhan buat dikasih 1 kesempatan lagi, yang gw janji ga bakal gw sia2in sampe tugas gw di dunia ini abis. 


so, kita emang gatau kapan kita di 'tampar' sama Tuhan. tapi gw yakin, "Jika kita mengaku dosa kita, maka Ia adalah setia dan adil, sehingga Ia akan mengampuni segala dosa kita dan menyucikan kita dari segala kejahatan (1 Yohanes 1 : 9).


dan satu hal yang pasti, Tuhan adalah pencipta kita semua. jadi, ga mungkin Tuhan akan mencelakakan kita. percayalah, kalo Tuhan menyembunyikan maksudnya, Dia akan menghibur kita dengan janjiNya. 


2 paragraf terakhir ini yang bakal gw terus baca buat nguatin gw :)


so, GOD bless us!

"No man can ever claim you, 

unless he claims you from ME.

I reserved a man for you, he has MY heart and 

he loves ME

more than he will love you.

he will not have you unless

he asks of you from ME.

Soon, you will know him.

I have the perfect time.

you are MY princes, MY daughter

let no prince claim you 

unless he asks for your hand from ME.

For I am Your Father, the King of Kings

and you; MY princess, 

are worth loving"  

itu kata2 gw 'culik' dari DP bbmnya temen SMA gw. nah namanya nyulik, jadi gw belom ijin orangnya. dan kayanya kata2 'belom' akan sedikit berkembang jadi kata 'ngga', wkwk :p

hmmmm so sweet ya? itu ceritanya surat dari Tuhan buat semua anak cewe di dunia ini, which means, gw juga dapet *gw cewe toh?* :) hehehe :D

beberapa waktu yang lalu pas gw lagi blogwalking, gw emang baca kalo cowo yang dikasih Tuhan buat kita emang bakal mengasihi Tuhan daripada dia mengasihi kita, dan kita sebagai cewe juga harus mengasihi Tuhan daripada kita mengasihi suami kita. hmm. itu sebuah kalimat yang berat rasanya buat di lakuin. easy to talk, difficult to put it into action. 

mungkin yang harus diinget adalah 'I have the perfect time' dan 'you, my princess, are worth loving'. jadi kita pasti dapet yang terbaek di waktu yang tepat karna kita itu WORTH to be loved :D 

well, wish me luck on that! :D

Citra Putriarum

buat gw , seorang Citra Putriarum lebih dari sekedar temen SD, temen SMP ato temen gereja. hmmmm emang ga salah kalo dibilang dia temen SD, secara emang kita 1 SD, di SDK 3. ga salah juga dibilang temen SMP n temen gereja, karna kita emang 1 SMP di SMPK 2 n 1 gereja di GKI GunSa.

nah, kalo boleh jujur *kyny dia ga tau ttg ini wkwk* gw pertama kali 'ngeh' dia itu di gereja, bukan di sekolah. jujur waktu itu gw ngefans sama yang namanya Citra Putriarum ini *tapi lupa alesannya apaan hmm uda lama sih :p* ga nyangka banget, skarang gw bisa deket sama dia! hahaha saya senang loh *gtw dia seneng juga ato ngga, hihi*

gw sama citra ga pernah berantem. kita deket dari SD sampe skg, seinget2 gw sih ga pernah brantem. padahal menurut gw, kita itu beda banget. 


yang pertama nih, gw itu bejat dia itu alim wkwkwk. dari SD deh uda keliadan, SMP apalagi wkwk. gw jadi orang yang bisa dibilang mengikuti arus dunia :p yaaa tau lah anak2 skolah, nyontek PR, nyalin PR, KS kalo ulangan, bla3. citra? wah tidak pernah. kalo pernah juga jarangggg banget. 

gw itu agak2 egois, maunya diturutin. citra itu agak ga enakan orangnya, lebih banyak ngalah. nahhhh ini dia yg kyny paling banyak ngaruh wkwk. kalo dulu gw maunya pkony harus yang gw mau yang diturutin. tapi karna citra, keegoisan gw agak2 berkurang *ini sih yang gw rasain ya, kalo orang laen bilang gw tetep egois hiks hiks sedih deh huhuhu*

eeee dia itu ga narsis. amat sangat ga narsis, susah di ajak foto. makanya gw mau buat kado ultah buat dia yang uda tingga besok aja susah setengah mati astaga. uda buka2 foto2 dari SD SMP SMA n skarang kita b2 uda kuliah, yang ktemu foto bareng itu cuma 14 biji *astaga wkwk* nah gw, gw itu narsis amat sangat. well harus gw akuin, dulu pas SD gw sama kaya dia ga narsisnya, tapi pas SMA gw ktmu temen2 yang narsis jadi gw juga ikutan narsis deh wkwkwkwk sampe bonyok gw kadang2 bingung gw kog bisa2nya foto2 di kamar depan kaca gitu berkali2 *yang untungnya skg uda ngga*. nah kalo si citra, dia sampe skg ga narsis2 jadi foto gw sama dia tuh kalo gw inget2, kebanyakan gw yang ajak foto. coba bayangin kalo gw ga pernah ajak  lu foto ciiit ciit, kita ga bakal ada foto b2 kali ya hehehehe :D

citra itu lemah lembut wkwk gw itu agak kasar. dari yang simple2 deh hmmm. gw kalo ngmg demennya treak2, agak kenceng deh suara gw. dia itu lebih lembut, lebih 'cewe' kalo dari cara ngmg. oh n dari cara ktawa juga. gw kalo ktawa bisa ngakak seenak jidat, citra ngga.  


nah karna smua perbedaan2 itu, Citra ituuu *ini istilah nyokap gw nih* bisa dibilang 'penyeimbang gw' wkwk. gw yang tadinya bejat jadi agak alim, gw yang egois jadi agak2 ga egois, gw yang narsis jadi ngga gitu narsis *hmm tapi kyny kalo ini cuma kalo sama dia doang :p*, gw yang agak kasar jadi lembutan dikit deh *brasanya* hehe :D

lalu lalu lalu, Citra itu tau gw dari yang paling buruk2nya gw. pkonya yang orang laen ga tau, dia tau. yang bonyok gw gatau, dia tau. hmm trs kalo ada apa2, most of the time dia bakal jadi orang yang paling pertama tau. 

gw manggil Citra itu belahan jiwa wakakak. kalo hari minggu di gereja gw nyariin citra, gw ntr tanyanya 'eh ada yang liad belahan jiwa gw ga?' huahhah :p 

oh trs2, gw sama citra itu sering dibilang mirip lohhhhh. padahal kyny beda banget yak, gw gndut dia kurus hmmmm. anw gw tambah gndut skg loh astaganaga, liburan dari bali bikin orang tambah gendut nan item. okay itu out of topic. hahaha. citra sih ngaku2nya uda tambah gndut sekarang, kalo diliad2 dari fotonya juga sih dia tambah gndut hihi. tapi kalo diliad dari foto pas SD, dia tuh gndut loh! bukan gndut sih, tapi yaaaa kalo ngeliad foto dia sekarang n pas SD itu bisa dikategoriin gendut buanget wkwkwk :p

nah yang namanya Citra Putriarum yang daritadi gw omongin ini *semoga orangnya ga bersin2 deh ya*, 1 jam lagi bakal ulang tahun yang ke 18 hihi. nyiapin kado buat Citra ini penuh suka dan duka dan tragedi loh wkwkwk.

jadiiiiiiiii 

happy 18th birthday, my dearest friend!

kadonya minggu yaaaaaa muach muach XOXO  
ini ultah terakhir lu bisa ktemu sama gw loh hiks hiks hiks taun depan gw uda di oz ato ngga di KL. smoga lu demen sama kadonya ya hihihihi. 
lalu lalu, keep contact yaaaaa huhuhu :( sedih loh ngebayangin ntr ga ketemu lagi hiks ga ada yang bisa gw tlp kalo gw lagi bingung n galau2 ga jelas. 


love you! XOXO

Be A El i. BALI.

BALI. yeah! i just came back from Bali today *literally, as Air Asia delayed their flight until 23.45 WITA so that i arrived at Jakarta at 00.30 siggghhh* i went to Bali with some friends, Grace, Andrian, Johan, Jordan and Frans and had 5 nights and 6 days there *i think it became 6 nights and 7 days with last day spent in the airplane :p*

IT WAS EXTREMELY GOOD! well personally, i have been to Bali 3 times before, but this time was really different as i went there by myself *not with parents or teacher or whosoever :p* and used my own money wkwk.

so firstly, Grace came up with the idea to go to Bali. she told me, and i directly said YES! hahaha :p i did not even think of may parents not allowing me to go, as i knew they will absolutely allow me :p at the same time, Frans also asked me to go out of town as 3-week holiday would be REALLY BORING *indeed*. so then, we decided to go to Bali for 5 nights and 6 days. the process of getting the tickets and hotels and making plans of what we are going to do themselves had been very enjoyable *for me, i dont know for them :p* , making us more excited to go to bali *n disturb our focus from studying for final exam (REALLY!)*

we did many things and went to many places there. we went to the waterbom, did some water sports *i did banana boat, flying fish and paraceiling*, enjoyed rafting *hell yeah, it was good!* then made A LOT of  photos of sunset, we swam at beaches, n many other things.

unfortunately, i dont have the photos with me, i think i will post the activities later on after i get all the photos. well but it will take very longggg time as it is likely that i will not meet andrian *he has all the photos* until we meet at college, which is at 27th of June *sigh* . i cant stand waiting for the photos and take a look at all of them graaaaaaaa.

assignments n exam

wahhhhhhhhhh. uda lama juga gw ga ngeblog. kalo ngeliad blog terakhir gw yang ttg tugas, i guess i have not posted any post because of those hellish weeks full of assignments, assignments and assignments. ckckck.

okay karena di post sebelomnya gw tulis "but at the end it will worth all the effort rite? yeay!'. i do have to tell you all know that it was really worth the effort *nari2*. report management and mareketing yang gw kerjain slama liburan ternyata dapetttttttt

*jeng jeng jeng jeng*

HD! high distinction. 80 above!

waaaaaw. gw waktu dapet hasilnya sampe speechless. terutama marketing. waw. gw uda deg2an banget secara lecturer gw kasih tau kalo setengah kelas langsung automatically dapet P (50-60) karna reference listsnya ga sampe 5. gw uda deg2an gw salah satu di antaranya karna gw lupa reference lists gw ada berapa, tapi trnyata pas di umumin. jeng jeng jeng jeng. HD. wow gw lgsg speechless wkwk. 

report management gw juga dpt HD, yang bikin gw sangat amat bersyukur karna ini tuh 25% dari sluruh nilai gw, jadi nutup banget nilai gw yang 15% yang dapet pass. 

setelah ituuuuu. gw ada final exam. karna gw ambil 4 pelajaran, jadi gw harus ikut 4 exams. n sedikit gambaran, 1 pelajaran itu bahannya 1 buku *yang sebagian besar buku2nya itu 700an halaman* AND 12 set slides *yang rata2 1 pelajaran itu ada hmmm 300-400 slides? yang jelas, tumpukan slidesnya itu yah setebel buku harpot yang ke 4 sampe lah*. nah, 1 minggu yang amat sangat stress bukannnnn?

hari pertama itu marketing. 

gila ini bahannya paling gila gila gila. 1 minggu ada 2 set slides, jadi rata2  1 minggu itu 8-10 halaman powerpoint, yang artinya 48-60 slides perminggu, n coba ana lu kali 12 minggu berapa banyak dah tuh. belom buku cetak. mana ini sampe week 12 masih ada pelajaran baru *pelajaran laen cuma ada revision slide di week 12*. jadi ada 24 set slides. gw uda belajar dari hari jumat, minggu baru kelar wkwk. gw ga bisa bayangin gimana temen2 gw yang belajar SKS hari minggu, itu panas banget pasti otak. gw blajar 3 hari aja panas. 

nah pas exam, thanks God ga ada yang gw lupa bahan2nya. ini ada 3 parts. 

pertama, long essay. worth 40 marks -__- well, ini sebenernya write-all-you-know question, secara questionnya tuh 'what is marketing'. tapi dia kasih point2 apa yang harus di tekenin, gw dapet pertanyaan yang lebih ngarah ke understanding of consumer behaviours *kalo ga salah inget, gw uda lupa sebenernya*. hmm gw kasih ilustrasi ttg perusahaan mobil di sini wkwk. gimana dia bisa understand needs and wants consumers, mau mobil tipe kaya apa, mau buat 'image' kaya gimana ttg mobil itu, trs gimana dia harus determine 4Ps and n 7Ps nya (product price promotion place people process and physical evidence *wow gw masih inget!*) trs ya apa aja yang harus dia lakuin, marketing research, bla bla bla. 

part kedua, short essay. worth 20 marks. ini gw disuruh tulis ttg consumer buying process. 

part ketiga, short answer. worth 40 marks. ada 6 pertanyaan, n kita disuruh pilih 4 buat djawab. 

nah 3 part harus gw jawab dalam waktu 2 jam saja saudara saudara. lu bisa bayangin -__- gw ga brenti nulis sama skali. SAMA SEKALI. bahkan kalo uda mau ending2 di kalimat terakhir, gw uda baca pertanyaan slanjutnya -__- gila deh pegel banget tangan. keluar2 tuh tangan gemeter *ini gw ga sadar, cowo gw yang ngmg wkwk*. otak juga panas banget, bengong doang kerjaannya abis exam haha. uda cape banget. tapi yaaaaa lumayan bisa sih, n gw juga lumayan hepi karna gw kelar. ada bbrapa temen gw yang ga kelar. 

lalu lanjur hari ke 2 itu accounting. 

nah ini gw agak nyantai kerjainnya, karna waktunya 3 jam, n 9 pertanyaan essay. gw lupa apa aja pertanyaannya, pkonya question pertama itu 10 MCQ (multiple choice, PG gitulah) teori smua. trs ada adjustment a.k.a AJP, yang kita juga harus itung profit yang baru setelah adjustment, trs apa lagi yaaaa hmmm ada costing, ada financial mathematics, ada financial report, ada ratio analysis, ada hmm lupa lagi apaan.

lumayan bisa sih, n gw juga kelar stg jam sebelom jamnya. itu juga termasuk lama temen2 gw uda ada beberapa yang keluar duluan. tapi pkonya gw kerjain ini otak tuh tenang, ga keburu2 kaya kerjain marketing yang uda kaya di kejar setan -__-

hari ke 3 management. 

wah gila ini lebih mantep lagi dari marketing wkwk. ada 2 parts, part pertama essay worth 40 marks, part ke 2 short answer worth 60 marks, 2 jam saja juga saudara saudara. 

essaynya bisa pilih 1 dari 4 pilihan, gw chose HRM, human resource management. n thanks to temen gw diana yang uda pernah latian buat ttg itu essay, jadi gw agak2 mengambil ide dari dia :p wkwk yah abis uda ga sempet mikir lagi tulis apaan. gw brasa slama gw ujian gw nulis dulu baru mikir hahaha.

trs part 2 short answer, bisa pilih 6 dari 8. errrr kalimat terakhir gw pas gw jawab ttg control ga kelar :( ya cuma emang detail ga penting sih, tapi yaaaaaaa kesel aja. baru tulis kalimat terakhr, uda di treakin 'put all your pens down' haaaaa. oh kalo di college, ada yang masih keliadan nulis namanya lgsg di catet buat di kurangin nilainya nanti -__- 

ini exam yang paling gw ga yakin. emang gw juga ga gitu demen pelajaran management. bahannya banyak, teori smua haaa. kalo marketing kan lumayan lah bisa diliad aplikasinya, kalo management tuh susah haiya. 

hari terakhir, MCD 2020. microeconomics. 

well, lumayan bisa sih. tapi ada 1 question yang worth 6 marks yang bahkan gw gatau arti dari pertanyaannya apaan. wkwk itu kira2 pertanyaannya 

'what are 3 argumentations of why people advocate trade'

nah, gw bahkan ga ngerti apa arti kata 'advocate' ini. kira2 lebih ke 'melarang' ato 'mendukung'. mau ngarang juga bingung -__- gw kesel stg mati. itu 6 marks bok, gw ga jawab, lgsg dapet 94 arrrgggghhh. akhirnya gw cuma tulis fakta2 ttg trade 3 biji wkwk. n pas uda pada kelar, temen2 gw juga ternyata pada gatau apa arti advocate. kita semua kesel gara2 kita gagal ngejawab pertanyaan cuma gara2 vocabulary, bukan gara2 kita ga bisa jawab. temen gw uda ada yang tanya ke pengawas apa arti advocate, tapi pengawasnya ga mau kasih tau. emang ga boleh sih mkny gw juga ga tanya wkwk. jadilah, kita sekelas bersedih ria gara2 itu 1 kata. ada yang jawabnya sama kaya gw cuma kasih fakta2nya doang, ada yang jawab lebih ke 'melarang', ada yang jawab lebih ke 'mendukung'. anw, sampe skg gw belom tau apa arti advocate wkwkwk. gw uda cari di buku cetak juga ga ada tuh 3 argumentations hiks hiks hiks. 

nah ya begitu lah ttg exam n assignments gw hahahaha. 

gw lagi menunggu hasilnya nanti tanggal 10. huuuffff semoga bagus2 deh, soalnya klao mau ke aussie rata2 gw harus 70, kalo ngga gw terpaksa di lariin ke KL.