if i were to choose

this post is not to show that i am ungrateful with my current condition, but i am writing this to keep my dreams unforgotten and to remember that there's nothing impossible, is there?


if i were to choose, i wanted to be great in drawing so that i could be an architect or interior designer. when i was little, i always loved to draw. one of my dreams was to be a painter, like Piccaso, Van Gogh, etc. but then, years passed, i realised that i have no special talent in drawings. then i changed my dream.

i changed my dream so that i could be a novelist. i always love to read novels, comics, magazines, everything, until now. then i think i could be a writer so that people who love reading could enjoy my writings. i wanted to be a famous writer, i wanted to write lots and lots and lots of novels or short stories for children all over the world. when i  was little, i adored Enyd Blyton, Hans Christian Anderson, Laura Ingals, and many other classic writers (sorry if i misspell something). then, months passed, i know i was not good at writing fictions. 

when i was in senior high school, i tried to figure out what i will do for a living. i always want to do what i love, so i could enjoy my work. at that time, i always thought about being a journalist in magazines or newspaper. i think i have a good opportunity too, as my grandfather owns a local newspaper in Pontianak. my mother once suggested me to go there and learned about being a journalist. but, as months passed, i realised i never read any newspaper or magazines hahaha. well, i always love reading fictions, but i am really not a fan of non fiction  :p however, this is the strange one, i prefer to write nonfiction rather than fiction. it is much easier. i am not creative, so i am not able to make up fantasy stories. i prefer to do research, to go some place that events are being held, and write about it.


the last dream is the one that i am still dreaming about. i always love to write, even though i was very rarely update this blog :p well, that's because i am not creative, i dont know what to write until i am told what to write. that's why i prefer to be a journalist, when i am told about i am going to write. well, at least that is my imagination of the work of journalist. i dont know if it is true. 


to go to my current condition, i am a university student taking bachelor degree in accounting. well, that's quite far from my dream, eh?
i dont take it because i have a dream to be an accountant. i take it as my best choice as with the things i like, i dont have any talent. so i guess i have to choose any field that needs no special talent and is quite general so that people with no special interest in the field could still enjoy the work. you understand what i mean? hmm


for example, i cannot imagine if i were studying doctoral. i hate biology, i hate chemistry. hahaha. doctor is a field that REALLY needs a special interest from people who want to study it. if the people do not like doctoral, i bet their university life is like hell haha. 


and i cannot imagine if i forced myself to study interior design and architect. i LOVE to see my friends' drawing and design, but at the same time, i know i could never, ever, be able to draw like that hahaha. 


i dont know whether any of my dreams could still be reached, i guess now i only need to do my best at whatever i have chosen now. maybe i could be a writer in accounting magazine :p